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25 March 2012 @ 02:13 pm
Fanfic: Dream Boy  
Title: Dream Boy
Fandom: Queer as Folk
Rating: G
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Timeline: Late Season 3
Summary: Justin Taylor is a dream boy, floating around the city with his blond hair and blue eyes, bringing a little more light and color wherever he's been. Ethan thinks that that was the real problem.
Notes: I'm trying to get back into the business of writing. Anyway, a sort of idealized idea, as I really don't think Ethan ever truly saw either Brian or Justin as they actually were....



Justin Taylor is a dream boy, floating around the city with his blond hair and blue eyes, bringing a little more light and color wherever he's been. Ethan thinks that that was the real problem. It had nothing to do with him cheating.

Justin was made for the Brian Kinneys of this world, not for mere mortals like Ethan Gold. The men who are painfully handsome, for whom everything turns to gold. Who never want for anything. Who people wish would fall on their face, just once, so they can know the pain of the humiliation; the world could die waiting.

The fact is that you can only ever think you have a dream boy. He'll come into your life, and even though he is physically there, you know that the entire time his mind is with Brian Kinney. You'll spend every day wondering if you measure up to his standards, and somehow knowing that you don't. A smart man will get out while he can.

The only problem with this, is that nobody's ever smart enough when it comes to boys like Justin Taylor. Because even though he smiles sweetly at just about everyone that he comes across, you always manage to convince yourself that with you, it's different.

Ethan certainly did.

Which is why, a little over a month after Justin left, he's thinking he'll see if Justin is working at the diner this morning. Which, of course he is.

He didn't think ahead of time, though, because Brian is there too. Ethan can see through the window, Brian's eyes are following Justin's every movement, even when he's talking to someone else. And when Justin puts food down in front of them, Brian grabs him around the waist and pulls him onto his lap. Justin laughs happily at this, and they spend a few minutes kissing softly, from which Ethan can't look away. Because damn if he ever got such undivided attention from Justin.

And the thing that truly makes Ethan's stomach hurt is when he sees Brain now and realizes that, when Justin wasn't there, Brian looked like he hadn't rested well. Whatever Justin gave Brian to make him look this happy, he certainly never gave to Ethan.

It's only then that he fully accepts these truths about Justin. And without bothering to go in, he simply turns around and walks away.





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kiyouseikiyousei on March 25th, 2012 06:26 pm (UTC)
I love Ethan revelation fics XD Probably cuz I never liked his character and these fics are like "Hah! In yo face!" kinda thing =P

Awesome post!
MissTeacakesmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:07 am (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it. And yeah, Ethan was pretty annoying.
techgirl_on_ijtechgirl_on_ij on March 25th, 2012 06:33 pm (UTC)
This was really great! I loved it!
MissTeacakes: amazingmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:06 am (UTC)
Thank you!
toshiani007: bjatoshiani007 on March 25th, 2012 06:43 pm (UTC)
Brilliant, loved it!!!
MissTeacakes: amazingmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:00 am (UTC)
Thanks!
ta_wandata_wanda on March 25th, 2012 06:44 pm (UTC)
This is so insightful. I think Ethan could only view the world from his own self-absorbed point of view. He never saw any of the situations the way most viewers did.
MissTeacakesmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:02 am (UTC)
Thank you. Ethan had a very rosy view of the world. And he never saw most of the situations that we viewers did at all, anyway, right? Still, he could definitely have seen things better.
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MissTeacakes: sexmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:03 am (UTC)
Shame for everyone involved, really. Still, I think Justin needed to learn a lesson of his own.
Yvonne Reidyvonnereid on March 25th, 2012 07:10 pm (UTC)
I love this.Its always nice to read someones reflections like this :)
Huge Hugs,Vonnie xoxox
MissTeacakes: amazingmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:07 am (UTC)
Thank you!
shenovashenova on March 25th, 2012 08:24 pm (UTC)
Justin and Brian were meant to be together and in the end Ethan wouldn't have been surprised to see them kissing and being happy.
MissTeacakes: amazingmissteacakes on March 25th, 2012 11:59 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think he saw it coming. Thanks for reading!
bksbraceletbksbracelet on March 25th, 2012 08:33 pm (UTC)
Good for you Ethan your time was always limited and you were lucky to be near the flame that is Justin Taylor :)
MissTeacakes: three-o-eightmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:05 am (UTC)
He was lucky for what he got. Thank you for the comment!
sandraj60sandraj60 on March 25th, 2012 08:39 pm (UTC)
I love the first line and I love this fic. Nice Ethan POV and revelation. I like that it wasn't an emotional, hate filled villain-like Ethan, but a more mature one. I also loved this line:

"Whatever Justin gave Brian to make him look this happy, he certainly never gave to Ethan."

You're doing a great job getting back into the swing of things.
Set your mind at rest and let your dreams run free: Amused (word)moonbrightnites on March 25th, 2012 11:12 pm (UTC)
I like that it wasn't an emotional, hate filled villain-like Ethan

YES. I want more fics with Ethan where he's IC rather than a kidnapper, rapist, drug-peddling serial-killing baby-snatching whatever! Arrgh.
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Set your mind at rest and let your dreams run freemoonbrightnites on March 25th, 2012 11:10 pm (UTC)
Yay! I totally squeed when I saw you'd posted something new. :)
Poor Ethan. He's right, Justin was never intended for him -- but I hope he enjoyed the time that he had.

Because damn if he ever got such undivided attention from Justin.

That's so true. Justin always seemed a bit distracted with Ethan, didn't he?


Michelle
MissTeacakes: majorbottomsmissteacakes on March 25th, 2012 11:49 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I'm a bit of a slow writer, so I'm glad that I got such a joyous reaction.

I do kinda feel bad for Ethan. I actually noticed Ethan's insecurity more than Justin's distractedness; one of the major cracks in the relationship was his tendency bring Brian up all the time (or chase Justin down in 303).

Either way, it was a doomed relationship from the beginning...
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later2nite: evil kinney girllater2nite on March 26th, 2012 12:30 am (UTC)
I like this a lot. Very realistic and paints such a beautiful image of Justin and Brian. ♥
MissTeacakes: amazingmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 12:51 am (UTC)
Thank you so much!
aaa_mazingaaa_mazing on March 26th, 2012 09:41 am (UTC)
What did Ethan think? That he was the man for Justin? That Justin would forget about BK? I suspect Justin'd get sick and tired of Ethan eventually, even if he hadn't cheated.

Lovely insight! Thanks for sharing!
MissTeacakes: amazingmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 11:49 am (UTC)
I really feel like Ethan couldn't get over how rich Brian was. And yeah, I think Justin would get tired of being in the closet...not to mention the lack of rough sex.
Daphneduffy_60 on March 26th, 2012 11:19 am (UTC)
Wonderful ficlet, sweetie. You made some wonderful and astute analogies with this.
MissTeacakes: three-o-eightmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 11:51 am (UTC)
Thank you!
6frog on March 26th, 2012 02:46 pm (UTC)
I was so happy when Justin fought his way back to Brian. I never could abide rat chin.
Lots of love from 6frog
MissTeacakesmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 09:31 pm (UTC)
I think we all were; Cowlip created a character we could never truly like and stuck him in a situation we'd never tolerate for long. Still, I feel like the Ethan arc was completely necessary for Justin to break his complete dependence on Brian.
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Pam81pam81 on March 26th, 2012 07:07 pm (UTC)
This was beautiful. I’ve really enjoyed it.
Thanks for sharing ♥
MissTeacakes: three-o-eightmissteacakes on March 26th, 2012 09:31 pm (UTC)
Thank you!