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10 July 2010 @ 10:37 pm
Fanfic: When I Grow Up  
Title: When I Grow Up
Fandom: Harry Potter
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Summary: Sirius never wanted anyone to know what he wanted to be when he grew up when he was a child. Slight silliness.


All Blacks were Slytherins, and all Slytherins were ambitious. For this reason, for as long as he could remember Sirius was strongly encouraged to have big dreams. When people asked him what he wanted to be when he grew up, he would recite what he assumed were the right answers—things like becoming the Minister of Magic.


What he really dreamed of, though, was being Sirius, the enormous dog in myth, for whom he was named. When he grew up, he wanted to be a doggy.


It was a crushing day for him when, at the age of four, he Realized that things didn't work like that.


Of course, having Bellatrix laugh at him and tell him what an idiot he was also meant that this was the day he decided he truly hated her.


After this, he remained more or less without ambition. His childhood dream had been destroyed, and he wasn't able to really find anything to replace this. There were other things—to be in Gryffindor, to become an Auror—which could be called goals, but they certainly the answer to “What do you want to be when you grow up?” For, to be in Gryffindor meant he could irk his parents, and to be an Auror would simply be the means to an end, namely sending Bellatrix to Azkaban for the rest of her life, if not killing her.


It wasn't until he was nearly fifteen that he realized that he could, in fact, grow up to be a doggy. And when he did, it was all he could do not to run to Bella and shove it in her face. Instead, he satisfied himself with something that he considered very Remus—that was, feeling a little surge of secret triumph every time he saw her. Of course, she could tell that he knew something that he didn't, and it made her furious. Which made Sirius feel even more triumphant.


He never wanted to share this with any of his friends—to admit that there was a time he honestly believed he could grow up to be something he wasn't was mortifying to him—but, like true friends, they dug the secret out.


Really, it was Remus that did.


It was during their seventh year, when they were trying to help James win Lily over that Sirius and Remus had bullied James and Peter into talking about Feelings. In order to deepen a friendship between the two, they agreed to swap secrets—to answer any questions they were posed with truthfully. When asked what they wanted to be when they were kids, the other four had relatively reasonable answers, so Sirius lied about his.


Sirius,” Remus said. “What did you really want to be?”


At his boyfriend's penetrating stare, Sirius felt his resolve crumble.


I...I wanted to be a dog, alright?”


James gave a loud snort, to which Lily instantly turned to hit him. To all their surprise, it was Peter that got there first.


Sirius,” Lily said, turning back to him. “That's...that's adorable.”


Sirius flushed, and glanced toward Remus. The werewolf was looking at him with an unreadable expression. James was trying to hide a smirk, quite unsuccessfully. Peter had his eyebrows raised.


I was...like...three years old!” Sirius said, tensing up defensively.


There is something endearing about it,” Remus said, smiling. “Anyway, it's not like you were dreaming the impossible dream.”


James opened his mouth, obviously trying to say something in agreement, but all that came out was a sort of choking and he started to laugh again.


That's it,” Sirius snapped. “Enough Feelings time. I should've known that you couldn't handle it.”


That's good with me,” Peter said, standing. “I'm going to go...do something else.”


Same here,” James said.


The two of them were out in almost record time. Lily, on the other hand, took her time leaving the boy's dorm. It seemed to them that she was getting ready to say something. Sure enough, just as she was about to leave, she turned and looked at the last two boys.


I want my first kid to be just as cute as you were,” she said with a smirk.


No you don't,” Sirius said. “Trust me, that's the only thing that was cute about me. I was a little shit.”


With a roll of her eyes, she turned to left. As soon as the door was closed, he felt Remus wrap him arms around his shoulders from behind. As he felt lips on his neck, he tilted his head to the side to further expose his throat. Otherwise, he didn't move for a few moments more.


Finally, he said, “That arse, James, I'm totally leaving a dead chicken in his bed tonight. I can't believe he laughed at me.”


Don't do that,” Remus said, leaning his head on Sirius' shoulder.


Why not? He deserves it.”


Because, I've got something better, anyway.”




Remus leaned close to his ear and whispered so quietly that Sirius barely caught what he said. It took another few seconds to register what was said, and he whipped around to see Remus smirking mischievously.


Are you shitting me?” he said.


I wasn't supposed to tell anyone,” Remus said. “He said he didn't want to come to you, because you'd laugh or something.”


Sirius considered for a moment. “Yeah, I probably would. Especially considering the types of things I shared with him.”


Yes, I heard.” Remus shrugged. “So now you can go ahead and bring that up whenever you want, so long as no one besides Peter and Lily hears. That's not fair.”


The animagus was starting to fear that the smirk was stuck on his face. “So did you do it?”


Yes. After I tried to convince him otherwise.”


What did you tell him?”


I told him you were a cock-whore.”


That caused the smile to disappear, to be replaced by a look of indignation. Remus just smiled sweetly and kissed Sirius on the cheek before standing to walk toward the showers. He stopped long enough to raise an eyebrow at his boyfriend. Getting the message, Sirius stood and followed with a fake pout on his face. It quickly changed to a suggestive smile, and he took Remus' hand as he walked out of the dorm.

Notes: Yes, another story for another time. But never, ever think those "Writer's Blocks" are useless. My sister told me about a week ago that when she was little she wanted to be a kitty when she grew up. So when I saw this one, I couldn't resist. Dreams do come true!


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D: cas heartepithalamium on July 12th, 2010 02:57 am (UTC)
I agree with Lily. Kid!Sirius was golden despite what he says to the contrary. XD
ladyannikaaladyannikaa on July 12th, 2010 03:59 pm (UTC)
Hehehe! priceless!
werewolfsfanwerewolfsfan on July 12th, 2010 11:57 pm (UTC)